Chapter 7: Wrong decision?
Days passed meaninglessly. Days got more worst ever since he agreed. Ever since Debbie confessed to him, everything changed. They both felt different and awkward. And being close friends, Simon knew Debbie had just broken up with her boyfriend, Edwin. He had many doubts about Debbie, trust is an important thing in relationships, but he couldn’t help but to wonder about it. Simon was always negative, and always commented on himself being short and ugly. Debbie would always get angry at him for criticizing himself, but sometimes, her lips will slip out some words that would anger Simon.
He always asked Debbie why she would even have feelings for him. But Debbie would reply that he was short just like Edwin, and she loves that. This made Simon suspect that Debbie was just using him as a replacement for Edwin. But he didn’t want to believe it.
Debbie constantly reminded Simon of Edwin, she told her friends that she never loved a guy so much before, Simon knew deep inside; Debbie didn’t want to forget Edwin and was just using him a replacement. It kills him whenever he thinks about it, but he couldn’t do anything to change it. He always asked Debbie about it but she would always say that she only loved him, what made him think more about it was that her words were never once convincing.
A few weeks passed after they agreed to be together. Simon felt stupid, foolish for letting her use him a replacement but he was used to it already after being toyed with many other girls. He hated his life even more, and Debbie started to doubt that Simon love her back because of his attitude towards her. Debbie was getting frustrated day by day, because she thought Simon wasn’t serious about the relationship. Simon sent a text message to her every day, but Debbie didn’t reply even once. He was getting more and more doubtful as well but kept it to himself.
Simon knew Edwin, but he didn’t really have the chance to meet him. They did talk online and through phone calls back when they use to conference with Debbie and gossip about other people. They shared happiness and sadness but Simon didn’t really like Edwin deep inside. Edwin had a very mean attitude, constantly insulting people and criticizing them. He often agitates Simon and others around him, leaving Debbie to clean up the mess. After Debbie and Edwin broke up, they never talked again because Debbie was their sole reason of being friends.
The heat was getting into Simon’s head; he couldn’t take all this pressure and wanted to spill everything he had kept to her. How he felt about the relationship, it would get them into an argument, but he wanted to know the truth badly. He muffled to her, “Debbie… do you really love me? Or are your words nothing but lies? Seriously, I’m getting sick of hearing you blabber about Edwin. Every time you talk to me, he will be in the topic. You make me burn in jealousy. I hate the feeling but I don’t have the courage to tell you until today. I do love you but I know you still have feelings for Edwin. You deny it, but ask yourself. Deep inside, you still love him more than me, more than anyone else.” Silent tears slid down Simon’s cheeks as he said those words, but Debbie on other hand, burst into tears, she tried to speak, but no words came out of her mouth. She was always sensitive to the words anyone said, which is also why one of the reasons why Simon didn’t want to tell her this. Simon comforted her, apologized and gave her time to cool down. He looked around for a bench and escorted her there and sat there together.
“You know, I wish time would stop now because you are by my side. My feelings for Edwin had faded ever since I’ve professed my love to you, but honestly, I’ll tell you, I can’t get him off my mind. You can call it love, you can call it yearning, but I don’t even love him anymore. All I want now is you, Simon. You’re the only one that can emancipate me from this misery. Believe it or not, it’s up to you. It’s your choice whether you want to continue this relationship or just be friends because I guess it’s all the same to you. Fate has is in no position to judge us”, Said Debbie while looking up at the clouds in the sky.
Simon nodded, “I still want to be with you, but promise me that you’ll take good care of yourself, because I can’t be there for you always. I might pick you up when you’re down, but I can’t do it alone, you have to help as well. Please don’t cry when I’m not around, because then, you won’t have my shoulder to lean on. I love you.” Debbie set her head on Simon’s shoulder as they watch the day fade away into darkness, for once they were happy together.
